This is my 4th week in A&E and I felt like I've made the wrong choice! why? people are there are just trying to find others mistake and commanding pple to do things!! I really HATE THE STAFFS THERE!!! THEY ARE JUST ARROGANT SO WAT U KNOW A LOT OF THINGS, IM HERE TO LEARN JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE AND TEACH ME !! ALTHOUGH I HAVE 3 YRS OF EXPERIENCE , THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I KNOW EVERYTHING!! IS A BRAND NEW ENVIRONMENT AND IM HERE TO LEARN!!! EVEN THE HCA ALSO BULLY ME!!! SIAN!! WORK TILL REALLY SIAN LE!!EVERYDAY I CAN ONLY LOOK FORWARD TO MY OFF DAY!!! NOTHING ELSE LE!!!JUST WORK AND LEAVE ! EVEN MY BREAK TIME, I ALSO DUN FEEL LIKE SITTING IN THE PANTRY TO EAT WITH THEM!! COS THEY ARE JUST TOO DISGUSTING !!!AND I WILL LOSE MY APPETITIE!!

Today is my fourth day in A&E. Its like shit today!! Didnt wanna mention wat i've encounter. BUt its not everyone can take it, being scolded everyday by relative or even patients and this is not wat i wan!! Today i really start wondering... Is this wat i really wan?? stress thru out and have to endure with the scolding every single day and yet u CAN'T bark back. Only my nursing frens would understand wat i've been thru and im not complaining. If i dun ventilate out to any one i think i might go crazy!!! Seriously, even my closet one dun understand how i feel, and this is like so sad...Even PSA can be so rude to u... i felt like i'm the smallest one and was given least respect!!! I dunno if i could hold for long cos this is only my 4th day and i'm feeling so low... everyday no frens with me have to do everything alone...Alone alone alone.. how long can i take it?

HI.. 2012, this is my third day in A&E. I miss my frenssss seriously.... im trying really hard to adapt to their environment. Helpless, lonely and sad... hai how to go on ... its really hard... And make it worst, i requested to work in CNY 1st day... actually i also dun wan but hai.. my family like broken into pieces le.. no point gg anywhere le without them!!!Hai. life like so lifeless... since the day i started on day shift.. i kind of prefer shift work now.. i dunno why maybe i just miss spenting time with him... hai... okay next is happy things... im gg to TAIWAN finally!!! with zhaocai and elaine... im really looking forward to this trip...

A new year has begun but certain things still remain the same and turn out to be more sux then before. Broken family still, nothings change.. this yr my mum doesn't wanna go hse visit.. yrs become more n more tougher for us!! becos of my dad!!!! and all of us suffer!!! super fuck up!!! hai..before i got into a relationship, i was much more happier and last time i really enjoyed CNY but now its like i dun look forward to CNY!!!!hai.. nobody will understand not even my bf... hai life sux!!

Betrayal---> This is indeed a scary word to most women! Well, I dunno abt u guys but i kept having dreams like *HIM* betrayed me. This is so real!! Is it becos RI YOU SUO SI YE YOU SUO MONG? I really have no idea. My mum told me that I really had a penny for my thoughts. Well, things happened that triggered all this ..I really had no idea if I shld carry on.. Is it really me ? Is it really me?

Hi guys, im sick again and this time round even though i'm really sick, I can't afford to take MC!!! WTFFF!! Becos not enough pple and im gg to A&E soon and i cant take!! hai super sian...

sorry won't take away the pain
sorry won't make me forget all the things you've done wrong
sorry won't erase the pain
sorry won't undo the heartache
sorry won't stop out the countless number of teardrops shed
sorry cant possibly change anything now

计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了 多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我 的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
继续温习我会 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现