sorry won't take away the pain
sorry won't make me forget all the things you've done wrong
sorry won't erase the pain
sorry won't undo the heartache
sorry won't stop out the countless number of teardrops shed
sorry cant possibly change anything now

计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了 多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我 的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
继续温习我会 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

Recently i encountered a case whereby the wife discovered that her husband cheated on her. Her husband was admitted and was using her medical benefit. She was so pissed off that she stopped the medical deduction. I was really thinking wat if this happen to me.. will i be the same like her so being so ruthless after knowing the truth?? I think i would just break down... life is so unpredictable.. why do people always do something to harm other's feeling..isn't tat very sad? I beileve no matter wat Love would always be there unless one day u say u have no feeling for me.. and i will leave ...

Oh My.. today not a very gd day for me as bad encounter with patient and his family members.. anyway dun wanna mention.. While i was preparing for ryan to fetch me.. I did something stupid.. wanted to shave my legs in the end kena cut.. and its bleeding profusely..applied pressure bandage also no use.. hmm.. Here comes the happy thing.. well me and him watched 2359 today.. local production.. to me its damn scary but i think to him is nothing la.. haha hopefully tml have to be a HAPPY DAY for me... and no more irritating specimens....

Well recently, i dunno wats wrong with my body system!! Whenever i starts my shift and when i get stressed up, i would start to have headache and gastric pain. Think i need to see my Gastric doctor again..Actually I'm very scared, cos when i see shiyun like tat hmm i'm also scared leh.. nowadays so many sickness.. hai... sucks man..
What if I'm really sick, will U be able to stay with me through thick and thin.. or you're just another passer-by in my life...??? I really have to move on n stop thinking TINA NEO SIN HWEE!!!

Today i attended my bestie Ruby's birthday party. OMG SHE IS GETTING MARRY NEXT YR!!!!!I just can;t believe and i'm so happy for her!!!! She really deserve it her long waiting XIN FU is coming.... and her bf really treat her so well....so good.. no matter wat he will stand by her through thick and thin.I really believe this is LOVE.. Her wedding will be on the 2/6/2012.. haha so fast n furious haha.. When will be mine? I truely dunno..but anyway just so happy that i can be part of her wedding and become her sister... woohoo....

Well, today is my last night.. can't wait for my off day today!!! hmm my new cupboard is here already but i think tml then they will complete it .. and guess wat, my house is in a MESS!!!oh god.. tired leh still have to pack my clothes n i'm so lazy to do!!!

Well this is the picture of the day!!
Recently,I have encountered one couple where his wife is admitted in hospital and he is always there with his wife. No matter how hard his wife hit him or scold him, he will always be there for her. Its so sweet rite? I really hope that my husband will be there for me forever....

Grow old with you

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

Well obviously not my wedding bell yet! haha, anyway this month been busily attending fren's wedding.Its so fun to share their joy with them however when ryan asked me when ours, i will be like" ahem..... ohhh.. haha".Well i admit that i do wanna get marry but just scared to marry the WRONG GUY! Well that wat every woman thinking...I found out that normal couples who already engaged and will hold their wedding in like 5-6 months time. Whereas only mine is SPECIAL. haha keep delaying. Even just now, i saw his ex already start their food tasting and i think within this yr or next yr, she will get marry soon! After marriage and babies on the way too.. this is exactly wat ryan wants..Soon SOon Soon will be ur turn ...

Recently me and ryan had a huge fight! something unpleasant happened! but now its all over and we promised each other not to fight ever again! Anyway gd news is I GOT OUR APARTMENT!haha its level #08-201 blk 461.. although it not the level we wanted intially but we are already happy about it le! I m working night shift today and tml.. hai so tired even though i did slept in the afternoon.. just wish my night shift to end ASAP!! And definetely can't wait for my holidays!!!!

Recently many things happened! I'm really sick of this family why is it become like that.. Why da Jie becoming the da Jie I dunno.. Really sick n tired of it..both of twins sister hai I really dunno wat to say le.. Let them
Have tuition and it's damn ex!! But still dunno how to think keep playing and PSLE is just around the corner why can't they just pull up their socks!! Hai so sick n tired of going home .. Why why my family become like not family le.. Why my dad become another stranger ? Everything just different now!!! Haizzzz and at times just feel tat nobody understand me
Currently I'm learning driving but I'm really suck at it.. Hai kept stalling car.. Hai

Well, just pissed off today!! We were going out tml with Joe n elaine.Then becos its been very long sincei last trim my browns and its so ugly!!! Then He sound so pissed and said : FUCK!! i did not hear wrongly cos this word is damn sensitive to me n i hate it when he said it to me!!Well as usual HE DENIED!!haiz.. and he said: why do u have to book appt when u know that we are going out tml?? well i totally forgetten that tml is a public holiday!! cos its a sat n i thought he will be working and by the time we meet i would have finish my appt!!! Didnt even hear my explanation and he .....hai really sian... i really dunno will we last long... last time i think that im really happy but now i just feel that im nolonger as happy as before.. why

What is care n love? If u really care abt someone, u would put urself into their shoes.. But I just think that u are not doing it! U know she has a blog, u know wats her add . But seriously do u know wats mine? I bet u dun even bother wat I'm writing here. Sometimes I think that I rather be that significant one that u will nv forget instead of bring the another one just to fit into marriage category. My words may seem to be harsh but that's the fact! Even he himself admit that he no longer treat his gf the way he used to be and it happened to be me, the unlucky one! Hai me so bloody stupid falling into stupid pathetic love where tears could measure the duration of our relationship. Got our flat already n yet still can't think .. Very tired n sian leh.. How how how ...

Well.first of all i would like to announce that finally I've got my house and my number is 161!! haha damn front lol.. but so bad la.. and second things is finally i passed my BTT. Though is not something really big but this is a next forward. Well, as for my house, I'm not really that happy cos it not my ideal one but at least i got it! Advanced dip is out again and I'm tired of trying cos i non i wont get it.. maybe i will try next year..cos this yr i just wanna get my car license and i wanna get my degree next yr.It looks like marry life is my next big thing. So stress.. really dunno wat to do.When I think of my twins sisters, the thought of giving birth really vanished. Cos not about the money, cost, space or er ren shi jie.Its all about responsibilities! He kept saying he wanted to have baby, but are u seriously prepare to be a father? Being a parent, one have to sacrifices many things e.g like sleeping time or even ur own hobbies.. its a lot of issues coming in. I just wanna do other things first but not to have baby.

Sry my nearest blog, i've been neglecting u so so long... well whenever i starts to write it means that i really have lots to pour... hmm today i quarreled with him again cos of travelling. well i've always been wanting to travel so much regardless where as long as its oversea im fine with it.But he refused he said we really need to save for our marriage blah... but when the other gal asked him he said" u go organise lol... so sad rite.. then but i confronted him he was upset and hang upmy call!!!I'm pissed!!!!really feel that it not easy to communicate with him anymore!hai...how to last even if we are marry?? so tired of it already!!

Pls dun do anything for me... i know wat u are going to do.. but i'm just not prepared yet...

Well i guess my blog had already rot... cos its been months since i last log in.. anyway.. i dun think he will read my blog again..that time he did its just plain curosity but now he is distracted by those tokyo gals.. anyway that time i said i discovered a really damn big secret well and now i duuno how to react on that particular date..i still choose to run away from problem.. i just dunno wat to say la..goning to be 3 yrs le and yet this kind of feeling n thought still linger around me.. is this my fault? it this wat i want? this is not wat i wan and i dun wish this kind of thingd to happen too!! but wat to do...hai... i dunno la..

I'm sick almost a week since last sunday.. omg.. fever, cough no voice... hai.. suffering loh.. but luckily, my voice came back le...well today i went for my SRP and as usual talk talk talk ... but good thing is i didnt doze off.. hehe after that ryan came to have dinner with me.. today is a rainy since 1 pm. CNY is just sround the corner and i really hop this yr will be a better yr than last yr.. but seriously i doubt so.hopefully they dun quarrel again...hai.. sian last time i really love CNY but now.. i feel that its meaningless...Without a complete family, everything is meaningless.. at times i do have phobia in my future marriage life tooo.. though we can't link them together but its hard.. when one person is not in my shoe...

In about 35 mins more will be 2011, years flies... and i will be turning into 24 so fast!!! Hmm My new year resolution are:


1. Take my car licence
2. Be Degree holder
3. Dieting
4. Travel to further countries


Well, Not really demanding rite, hmm need to really save up then i'm able to do wat i wanna do.Also need o save up for marriage, house etc... Hmm did i even mention that ryan is promoted to sale manager? haha well indeed good news for him.. In this year, he told me tat he almost got wat he wanted.. like going South china sea to fish, being promoted , bought his favoruite rod / reel haha.. dunno la.. well he got wat he wanted la.. but for me.. not really leh...

2011, please be a smooth sailing one! No more drama family, more peace n harmony...more tender,love and care to me....that all i need... thanks







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