Today is the last day of my al... actually i just finshed typing this blog but the stupid com no connection.. everything that i've tyoe is gone... have to retype again... i just checked his pc ytd and found lots of fgal pic... some of them are his frens...i felt so pissed and we even quarreled there... at last he deleted all the pictures... i still felt irrtated and sad... why can't he just love me wholeheartedly and not look at otheres gals... is it very hard to do this????whenever i see i just feel so sad... if i should continue this relationship... everytime even though i tried to break up with him eventuallly we will be back to square one... i will be very soft hearted and together again... how foolish am i... i really wonder if we really get marry how can i survive... i will end up i imh... have depression... i dun really wanna think of future now... just wanna stay like this now.. till i can really trust him ... hai.. he always said that i think too much... but if he can stop doing all these things i won't be thinking so much....he can prevent things from happening but yet everytime he let this things repeat and repeat ... felt really really sad and disappointed.....how can we form a family when our foundation is so unstable...