Its been weeks that i've nv update... recently been attending lotsa of wedding.. and its really enjoy to see couple get together and married.. I dun really wanna marry now.. cos i dun wanna be tied down by family and children..i dunno why whenever my menses come, my thoughts tend to go wild... thinking of things i shouldn't be thinking of... I still can't get myself to trust him.. i just think that he still cheats on me.. and been checking his facebook,mails etc...how can i deal with this.. he kind of cheated me once... but guys perception is that as long as i dun sleep with that woman means i didn't cheat on u... but u ask for the gal number, chat with her is already cheating me... this is how i think...i really had enough of all this whenever i think of this i will start thinkinng if i should break with him again...hai.. wat should i do so tat i will not feel this way again...

sigh...