Hui

2012-02-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

This is my 4th week in A&E and I felt like I've made the wrong choice! why? people are there are just trying to find others mistake and commanding pple to do things!! I really HATE THE STAFFS THERE!!! THEY ARE JUST ARROGANT SO WAT U KNOW A LOT OF THINGS, IM HERE TO LEARN JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE AND TEACH ME !! ALTHOUGH I HAVE 3 YRS OF EXPERIENCE , THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I KNOW EVERYTHING!! IS A BRAND NEW ENVIRONMENT AND IM HERE TO LEARN!!! EVEN THE HCA ALSO BULLY ME!!! SIAN!! WORK TILL REALLY SIAN LE!!EVERYDAY I CAN ONLY LOOK FORWARD TO MY OFF DAY!!! NOTHING ELSE LE!!!JUST WORK AND LEAVE ! EVEN MY BREAK TIME, I ALSO DUN FEEL LIKE SITTING IN THE PANTRY TO EAT WITH THEM!! COS THEY ARE JUST TOO DISGUSTING !!!AND I WILL LOSE MY APPETITIE!!

2012-01-12T04:57:00.000-08:00

Today is my fourth day in A&E. Its like shit today!! Didnt wanna mention wat i've encounter. BUt its not everyone can take it, being scolded everyday by relative or even patients and this is not wat i wan!! Today i really start wondering... Is this wat i really wan?? stress thru out and have to endure with the scolding every single day and yet u CAN'T bark back. Only my nursing frens would understand wat i've been thru and im not complaining. If i dun ventilate out to any one i think i might go crazy!!! Seriously, even my closet one dun understand how i feel, and this is like so sad...Even PSA can be so rude to u... i felt like i'm the smallest one and was given least respect!!! I dunno if i could hold for long cos this is only my 4th day and i'm feeling so low... everyday no frens with me have to do everything alone...Alone alone alone.. how long can i take it?

2012-01-11T04:32:00.000-08:00

HI.. 2012, this is my third day in A&E. I miss my frenssss seriously.... im trying really hard to adapt to their environment. Helpless, lonely and sad... hai how to go on ... its really hard... And make it worst, i requested to work in CNY 1st day... actually i also dun wan but hai.. my family like broken into pieces le.. no point gg anywhere le without them!!!Hai. life like so lifeless... since the day i started on day shift.. i kind of prefer shift work now.. i dunno why maybe i just miss spenting time with him... hai... okay next is happy things... im gg to TAIWAN finally!!! with zhaocai and elaine... im really looking forward to this trip...

2012-01-04T06:27:00.000-08:00

A new year has begun but certain things still remain the same and turn out to be more sux then before. Broken family still, nothings change.. this yr my mum doesn't wanna go hse visit.. yrs become more n more tougher for us!! becos of my dad!!!! and all of us suffer!!! super fuck up!!! hai..before i got into a relationship, i was much more happier and last time i really enjoyed CNY but now its like i dun look forward to CNY!!!!hai.. nobody will understand not even my bf... hai life sux!!

2011-12-22T11:10:00.000-08:00

Betrayal---> This is indeed a scary word to most women! Well, I dunno abt u guys but i kept having dreams like *HIM* betrayed me. This is so real!! Is it becos RI YOU SUO SI YE YOU SUO MONG? I really have no idea. My mum told me that I really had a penny for my thoughts. Well, things happened that triggered all this ..I really had no idea if I shld carry on.. Is it really me ? Is it really me?

2011-12-22T11:08:00.000-08:00

Hi guys, im sick again and this time round even though i'm really sick, I can't afford to take MC!!! WTFFF!! Becos not enough pple and im gg to A&E soon and i cant take!! hai super sian...

2011-11-18T19:36:00.000-08:00

sorry won't take away the pain
sorry won't make me forget all the things you've done wrong
sorry won't erase the pain
sorry won't undo the heartache
sorry won't stop out the countless number of teardrops shed
sorry cant possibly change anything now

2011-11-17T18:33:00.000-08:00

计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心撒了多少谎
但每次我都选择选择相信
相信你是爱我的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神我很窒息
难道你没有看见看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神我很窒息
难道你没有看见看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
继续温习我会讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

2011-11-08T10:24:00.000-08:00

Recently i encountered a case whereby the wife discovered that her husband cheated on her. Her husband was admitted and was using her medical benefit. She was so pissed off that she stopped the medical deduction. I was really thinking wat if this happen to me.. will i be the same like her so being so ruthless after knowing the truth?? I think i would just break down... life is so unpredictable.. why do people always do something to harm other's feeling..isn't tat very sad? I beileve no matter wat Love would always be there unless one day u say u have no feeling for me.. and i will leave ...

2011-11-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

Oh My.. today not a very gd day for me as bad encounter with patient and his family members.. anyway dun wanna mention.. While i was preparing for ryan to fetch me.. I did something stupid.. wanted to shave my legs in the end kena cut.. and its bleeding profusely..applied pressure bandage also no use.. hmm.. Here comes the happy thing.. well me and him watched 2359 today.. local production.. to me its damn scary but i think to him is nothing la.. haha hopefully tml have to be a HAPPY DAY for me... and no more irritating specimens....

2011-11-04T08:02:00.000-07:00

Well recently, i dunno wats wrong with my body system!! Whenever i starts my shift and when i get stressed up, i would start to have headache and gastric pain. Think i need to see my Gastric doctor again..Actually I'm very scared, cos when i see shiyun like tat hmm i'm also scared leh.. nowadays so many sickness.. hai... sucks man..
What if I'm really sick, will U be able to stay with me through thick and thin.. or you're just another passer-by in my life...??? I really have to move on n stop thinking TINA NEO SIN HWEE!!!

2011-10-29T07:14:00.001-07:00

Today i attended my bestie Ruby's birthday party. OMG SHE IS GETTING MARRY NEXT YR!!!!!I just can;t believe and i'm so happy for her!!!! She really deserve it her long waiting XIN FU is coming.... and her bf really treat her so well....so good.. no matter wat he will stand by her through thick and thin.I really believe this is LOVE.. Her wedding will be on the 2/6/2012.. haha so fast n furious haha.. When will be mine? I truely dunno..but anyway just so happy that i can be part of her wedding and become her sister... woohoo....

2011-10-19T11:05:00.000-07:00

Well, today is my last night.. can't wait for my off day today!!! hmm my new cupboard is here already but i think tml then they will complete it .. and guess wat, my house is in a MESS!!!oh god.. tired leh still have to pack my clothes n i'm so lazy to do!!!

2011-09-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

Well this is the picture of the day!!
Recently,I have encountered one couple where his wife is admitted in hospital and he is always there with his wife. No matter how hard his wife hit him or scold him, he will always be there for her. Its so sweet rite? I really hope that my husband will be there for me forever....

Grow old with you

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

2011-09-29T12:18:00.000-07:00

Well obviously not my wedding bell yet! haha, anyway this month been busily attending fren's wedding.Its so fun to share their joy with them however when ryan asked me when ours, i will be like" ahem..... ohhh.. haha".Well i admit that i do wanna get marry but just scared to marry the WRONG GUY! Well that wat every woman thinking...I found out that normal couples who already engaged and will hold their wedding in like 5-6 months time. Whereas only mine is SPECIAL. haha keep delaying. Even just now, i saw his ex already start their food tasting and i think within this yr or next yr, she will get marry soon! After marriage and babies on the way too.. this is exactly wat ryan wants..Soon SOon Soon will be ur turn ...

2011-09-15T10:13:00.000-07:00

2011-09-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

Recently me and ryan had a huge fight! something unpleasant happened! but now its all over and we promised each other not to fight ever again! Anyway gd news is I GOT OUR APARTMENT!haha its level #08-201 blk 461.. although it not the level we wanted intially but we are already happy about it le! I m working night shift today and tml.. hai so tired even though i did slept in the afternoon.. just wish my night shift to end ASAP!! And definetely can't wait for my holidays!!!!

2011-09-07T03:47:00.001-07:00

Recently many things happened! I'm really sick of this family why is it become like that.. Why da Jie becoming the da Jie I dunno.. Really sick n tired of it..both of twins sister hai I really dunno wat to say le.. Let them
Have tuition and it's damn ex!! But still dunno how to think keep playing and PSLE is just around the corner why can't they just pull up their socks!! Hai so sick n tired of going home .. Why why my family become like not family le.. Why my dad become another stranger ? Everything just different now!!! Haizzzz and at times just feel tat nobody understand me
Currently I'm learning driving but I'm really suck at it.. Hai kept stalling car.. Hai

2011-08-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

Well, just pissed off today!! We were going out tml with Joe n elaine.Then becos its been very long sincei last trim my browns and its so ugly!!! Then He sound so pissed and said : FUCK!! i did not hear wrongly cos this word is damn sensitive to me n i hate it when he said it to me!!Well as usual HE DENIED!!haiz.. and he said: why do u have to book appt when u know that we are going out tml?? well i totally forgetten that tml is a public holiday!! cos its a sat n i thought he will be working and by the time we meet i would have finish my appt!!! Didnt even hear my explanation and he .....hai really sian... i really dunno will we last long... last time i think that im really happy but now i just feel that im nolonger as happy as before.. why

2011-08-17T11:23:00.000-07:00

What is care n love? If u really care abt someone, u would put urself into their shoes.. But I just think that u are not doing it! U know she has a blog, u know wats her add . But seriously do u know wats mine? I bet u dun even bother wat I'm writing here. Sometimes I think that I rather be that significant one that u will nv forget instead of bring the another one just to fit into marriage category. My words may seem to be harsh but that's the fact! Even he himself admit that he no longer treat his gf the way he used to be and it happened to be me, the unlucky one! Hai me so bloody stupid falling into stupid pathetic love where tears could measure the duration of our relationship. Got our flat already n yet still can't think .. Very tired n sian leh.. How how how ...

2011-08-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well.first of all i would like to announce that finally I've got my house and my number is 161!! haha damn front lol.. but so bad la.. and second things is finally i passed my BTT. Though is not something really big but this is a next forward. Well, as for my house, I'm not really that happy cos it not my ideal one but at least i got it! Advanced dip is out again and I'm tired of trying cos i non i wont get it.. maybe i will try next year..cos this yr i just wanna get my car license and i wanna get my degree next yr.It looks like marry life is my next big thing. So stress.. really dunno wat to do.When I think of my twins sisters, the thought of giving birth really vanished. Cos not about the money, cost, space or er ren shi jie.Its all about responsibilities! He kept saying he wanted to have baby, but are u seriously prepare to be a father? Being a parent, one have to sacrifices many things e.g like sleeping time or even ur own hobbies.. its a lot of issues coming in. I just wanna do other things first but not to have baby.

2011-08-02T12:30:00.000-07:00

Sry my nearest blog, i've been neglecting u so so long... well whenever i starts to write it means that i really have lots to pour... hmm today i quarreled with him again cos of travelling. well i've always been wanting to travel so much regardless where as long as its oversea im fine with it.But he refused he said we really need to save for our marriage blah... but when the other gal asked him he said" u go organise lol... so sad rite.. then but i confronted him he was upset and hang upmy call!!!I'm pissed!!!!really feel that it not easy to communicate with him anymore!hai...how to last even if we are marry?? so tired of it already!!

2011-03-23T23:09:00.000-07:00

Pls dun do anything for me... i know wat u are going to do.. but i'm just not prepared yet...

2011-03-23T22:45:00.000-07:00

Well i guess my blog had already rot... cos its been months since i last log in.. anyway.. i dun think he will read my blog again..that time he did its just plain curosity but now he is distracted by those tokyo gals.. anyway that time i said i discovered a really damn big secret well and now i duuno how to react on that particular date..i still choose to run away from problem.. i just dunno wat to say la..goning to be 3 yrs le and yet this kind of feeling n thought still linger around me.. is this my fault? it this wat i want? this is not wat i wan and i dun wish this kind of thingd to happen too!! but wat to do...hai... i dunno la..

2011-01-10T05:23:00.000-08:00

I'm sick almost a week since last sunday.. omg.. fever, cough no voice... hai.. suffering loh.. but luckily, my voice came back le...well today i went for my SRP and as usual talk talk talk ... but good thing is i didnt doze off.. hehe after that ryan came to have dinner with me.. today is a rainy since 1 pm. CNY is just sround the corner and i really hop this yr will be a better yr than last yr.. but seriously i doubt so.hopefully they dun quarrel again...hai.. sian last time i really love CNY but now.. i feel that its meaningless...Without a complete family, everything is meaningless.. at times i do have phobia in my future marriage life tooo.. though we can't link them together but its hard.. when one person is not in my shoe...

2010-12-31T07:25:00.000-08:00

In about 35 mins more will be 2011, years flies... and i will be turning into 24 so fast!!! Hmm My new year resolution are:

1. Take my car licence
2. Be Degree holder
3. Dieting
4. Travel to further countries

Well, Not really demanding rite, hmm need to really save up then i'm able to do wat i wanna do.Also need o save up for marriage, house etc... Hmm did i even mention that ryan is promoted to sale manager? haha well indeed good news for him.. In this year, he told me tat he almost got wat he wanted.. like going South china sea to fish, being promoted , bought his favoruite rod / reel haha.. dunno la.. well he got wat he wanted la.. but for me.. not really leh...

2011, please be a smooth sailing one! No more drama family, more peace n harmony...more tender,love and care to me....that all i need... thanks

My latest BTO flat in Punggol

2010-12-22T08:11:00.000-08:00

Will he go astray? this is wat every woman will question themselves before they plunge themselves into marriage life.. well me too been wondering this for couple of times.. why is it always the females who think of this? I mean majority of the females..its really hard...Trust is really vital in a relationship.Once that Vital organ- TRUST- is betrayed.. it isn't easy to heal it.. but the other party dun really understand as they are not the patient..Emo again.. pple would always say that.. but is reallly really not easy to deal with it unless u are the one being hurt!! Dun really dare to plunge myself into marriage life as i;m seriously not prepared yet.. i mean yes of course partly financially but majority lies in me!! Couldn't overcome my own fear.. wat to do.. it isnt easy rite...hai..

2010-12-20T07:17:00.000-08:00

Gosh!!! Did i tell u guys that im back to work TODAY!!! feel so weird.. after enjoying lifes for 10 days.. dun feel like going back... hmm now the only thing im looking forward is my OFF DAY!! haha.. still feel sian cos i need to work on christmas eve and its a NIGHT SHIFT!! WTF n FML.. haha hmm anyway yesterday went to meet up with my dearest BFF... its really nice to spend time with them, listening to wats happening recently n so on.... really misses seconday schoool life... its really fun to see them everyday but now its pretty HARD... hai wat to do.. all growns up n started working... and is PICTURES time...

Me and My BFF.....

ME as usual...

2010-12-12T21:57:00.000-08:00

Hello hello, just came back from fishing trip yesterday. its was really fun and exciting as this was my first time ive caught a sotong.Though its not a big deal but its hard to catch at times even if u are dying for one...

So this is how a Sotong look like.. this is the one that Ryan "hooked" up... he didnt manage to fish it as this sotong is already full...

Well, on the second night, the boss Ah Nan went to cast net and they caught lotsa fiiiissshhhhhessss.... omg including crabs and even shark!! But wat caught my attention was the Kim Ba Loh... really live up to its name!! Pics coming up....

Its really golden in colour and really nice... how amazing it is!!

Last day, which was yesterday, and once again they cast their net and fish a SHARK..goodness!! haha we all took turn to take pic with the shark...

Nice one rite.. we also saw the whole process of the shark being Slice.. its really nice experience if this whole journey... after we returned to land.. we spent time shopping and eating and then we proceed home sweet home...
Its really a wonderful trip that i enjoyed very much with Dear, Joe and Elaine...

2010-12-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey... sorry for being late to update my blog.. haha finally the day has come.. and today im on LEAVE!!!!!!!! haha although its only for 1 wk... but i will truely enjoy.. as im free from work... hahahhaha.. and tml me, dear, zhao cai and elaine going kelong.. haha.. hmm though its only malaysia and its finshing but i dun really feel bored.. cos im out of singapore and the place is very relaxing .. can free ur mind... haha so why not!! Just finish packing my stuff for tml.. just really pray hard that not many pple going kelong tml.. cos i really cant stand those kids there!! They are really annoying!! Recently,all my bestie went overseas and me alone in Singapore as ryan ccant make it.. hmm am I being paranoid?? i dun think so leh.. cos they are really so close that i felt that im being left out.. last time when there wasnt coconut.. me and apple really share everything... but now i doubt so...hai sian...

2010-12-01T07:58:00.000-08:00

Hmm ytd idiot pig made me cry .. So sian.. Hate it!! So tired hmm 7 more days to my al and I really can't wait!! This time me Ryan Zhaocai n Elaine going together.. This is my third time going.. It's relaxing n fun... Well anyway I m so lazy to upload pics .. Today finally meet up with my gals.. Cindy n Weili.. Surprisingly I didn't go off early.. We went to bugis to shop too!! Actually thought of going to his hse.. But he won't be home so soon as he's still working so I might as well stay at home n tml need not to get up so early to wrk.. Hmm also remind me of him bullying me ytd.. I dun feel like going too!! My next off day will be on sat but he's workig n dun think he has time for me too. Recently also sonethig happening!! Me n Ryan participate in wedding shoot n we won first, well n we walk away with free wedding shoot. Currently still deciding on wat clothes to wear n where to get a makeup artist. And for my hair of course.. It's a new experience to me.. Bad news - our bto unsucessful again.. Really disapointed!! But wt to do.. Hopefully can get to choose somewhee near my hse.. But think it's unlikely cos he also dun wan.. Hai sian

2010-11-10T10:19:00.000-08:00

Hi guys or shld i said hi ryan... haha cos think only him reading my blog as i haven inform the rest of my frens.. hmm today is my one n only night cos was on HL ytd due to the scope.. its was really painful as compare to OGD..hmm this month really happening .. i went to CGH DnD last sat and haven have the time to upload all my pics.. hahamaybe tml or see when im free.. so sleepy now and i missed his bed n also him..spend almost 5 days staying at his house as if i'm already married to him le.. hahawell not so soon i guess..well sunday they are going to malaysia and im working so sad rite.. hai..dear dear i miss u much much..haha suddenly i recalled that ytd i was dreaming and i just hit ryan haha.. its was hilarous lol..

2010-10-31T07:12:00.000-07:00

Just feel like blogging today.. yesterday i went to my cousin's wedding at suntec convention. Its was awesome but i think their reception list was a bit messy.. cos i was one of the receptist and when the guests arrived, i dun know wats their name even though they told me. Cos its was not really written down. For e.g, they put Gu po, but i dunno wats their name then how i know who is Gu po.. hmm anyway this is also experience for me as i will know how to write when i get marry.Today ], i stay at home felt so boredd as dear went to his fren wedding.. haha i think he is broke... wedding after wedding.. lol

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Me n Dear

The 4 beauties and mummy

The mischevious sister

Our skinny Ah po and Us

2010-10-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, dear and me were watching Piranha 3D.. omg !!!! its was super gross and thrilling... though its those typical story line but the effect was really GROSS... haha hmm in this world.. really have Piranha but its in the other countries... anyway its a nice show...

2010-10-21T09:53:00.000-07:00

hmm.. how i wish i could sleep beside him right now.. its night again.. sian lol..tml he is not working and is meeting my sister to talk abt the company thingy but im not following cos got another night tml..but i will be off on sat n sun.. yipee.. cant wait... For sat, we will start rearranging his room.. clear away all the old stufff.. and there will be room for my things...hehe then on Sunday, we will be goingto Malaysia cos he need to do his car thingy..well well.. no moreshopping i guess but there will be more makan...hehe i just can't wait...

2010-10-08T12:38:00.000-07:00

A must watch movie!!!

i went to catch Dinner with schmucks with my brother the other day. Its was really hilarious!!! A 2 hours movie u cannot missed!!!

2010-10-08T08:51:00.000-07:00

Once again im on night as usual.Sadly this whole week me and him have not been spending time together ... he is busy with his function n hardly can meet up. All i can do is to waot for him at home.. even though i'm off on sunday but he is working ARg.....next sunday too!!! hai.. i know no choice have to work.. I can only wait for him at home lol.. wat to do.. YTd i brought my bro for a hair cut.. and he look like xiao zhu!!!..haha nice nice... i'm wondering how to spend my day off alone without him... how how how...hai too depend on him is not gd too.. but i just cant help cos im missing him now.. waiting for his call....

Just happen to see this pic again.. and i love it so much..

His Xiao Zhu hairstyle.. NIce!!

2010-09-29T06:15:00.000-07:00

LAst day of my off day, as usual no one can acc me and plus dear is super busy with his work no time to acc me... i just feel that when i get weekdays off i rarely have time to spend with him... hai sian therefore today i sent to do my nals...

my nails...

Tml going to start work le so sian and moreover i'm morning shift.. so sian hopefully i am doing with my kakis... just awaiting dear dear t call me when he reach home...

2010-09-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

On monday I just went for OGD.. really anxious as this is my first time.. after seting plug, i went into the room straight.It was really unbearable when they spray the thingy into my throat and after Doc Ang gave me my sedation, i went into sleep.. but i can still feel the presence of the tube into my throat...

My not so painful plug site...

2010-09-26T11:01:00.000-07:00

Today, after my night shift i went to his house to sleep.. as he said he would send me to work.. well but he is playing mj with his sister .. he didnt siad that he couldnt send me over.. i waitied till abt 7 plus then he said ask me to go myself. i was really pissed off.......but now i'm ok le.. just feel really scared abt the OGD cm..hai.. and only my sis is there to acc me...he is not free.. will only come after that

2010-09-25T11:41:00.000-07:00

Night again pple... tired this dear dear say wanna call me and i wait till just now then he called.. he said he fall asleep ... then now suddenly got light fromcom then he awake..hai naughty ben ben boy.. misses him so much.. tml im going to his house then he is gonna cook for me.. hehe dunno if it will taste horrible or superb.. waiting wating.. another news is that monday i'm going for OGD!!! oh my god... its sound so scary... and it cost me abt 500... goodness.. but dear wont have the time to acc me and is my sis who acc me.. im so sacred.. wat to do...

2010-09-22T03:33:00.000-07:00

On 20/9/10, i was really hungry and as usual dear went to work.. got no choice and i ordered Mac... after 15 mins, there was a knock on the door. How come Mac come so fast... just then i realise its dear dear.. came back with my duck noodle... so sweet of him to give me a surprise.. hehe and also we went to Ikea on Sunday with his both sisters and fren.. looking at furniture as though we were going to buy...lol

My Sweet n surprise Duck noodles

Dear and me..

2010-09-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Im here again to blog, just knocked off from work.. and realised that bedbug just invaded her room..OMG!! nightmare again lol...one more day to my off day which is tml... sian lol... recently i just found out that one of my patient had passed away after 2 days of discharged. well, we all suspect that he died due to hypoglycemia.. cos he always tend to hypo.. hai well life is unpredictable...

2010-09-15T09:22:00.000-07:00

Finally yesterday the result of our HDB is out!! i couldnt wait for the nest day n asked him to check immediately after we received call from zhao cai. Hai, upon seeing the result , disappointment filed the air.I know that he felt really upset about it.. actually me too though i didnt really expressed out. But he thought that i wasn't enthu abt it, cos elaine and joe so eager abt it whereas for him, he feels that he is the only one... well i also want a house of my own... but maybe its fate that we didnt get it.. or maybe there will be a more fantastic house waiting for us..Who knows rite...

2010-09-02T10:10:00.000-07:00

2010-09-02T08:55:00.001-07:00

Dear all, today is my first night, actually wanna blog long ago but no time...anyway just to share finally we got our own bed at home.. no more bugs!!after working for 10 days i feel so tired... and my DnD hai.. sad to said that only got 1 table... some of the gals know that i;m cracking my head and they volunteer to back out.. how nice of them.. but i wan them to go.. then its will be fine.. enjoying the nights.. if really too mant pple.. i will back out lol.. so sian..after preparing for so long my effort goes down the drain... sad.. i just bought red bull suggested by dear dear.. to keep me awake...and also yesterday i went out with dear n frens.. i saw one of the model in dear fb before.. she look really preety but so small size... how i wish i could have that kind of size one day... lol

2010-08-28T08:25:00.000-07:00

Time flies, last week I just went to Malaysia with dear and frens- Annie, jav, Zhaocai and Elaine.. It's was really fun in fact I dun feel tired wen I only get to slp for 4 hrs.. Just love shopping as I bought 5 items just for about 100 sgd.. It's so cheap.. While waiing for the ladies.. Those guys really know how to pamper themselves!! They went for massage, hair cut n treatment n archery!! Wow so fun.. After that we went to eat at the 777.. Nice hawker food... Just looking forward to more of these short trip!! Even though it's short but it really fun!!! Below are pictures where we took last week.. IMG_0500.JPG.

2010-08-21T10:56:00.001-07:00

I'm waiting for the fatty to call me... but yet he still doing his thingy.. well well i shall wait...i feel full now...and wanted to fall asleep le.. but can't sleep.. arg.....this is the most irritating part...just counting down to dawn...

2010-08-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

today is my last night.. i just went down to 7-11 to buy food... irrtating Ryan kho said that i'm a pig when i told me i;m hungry... hello Mr Kho.. i'm hungry hor.. i ate at ard 7pm but is only small amt ... hehe i bought Big M strawberry milk.. this is my favourite drink.. and also a japanese bun, magee mi and The natural sweet... it looks nice...i'm just looking forward to tml outing.. can't wait.. and today is my first day carrying my LV bag... try very hard to keep it as clean as possible... have to maintain leh... haha.. now the stupid ryan kho is playing "online soccer" lol hehe hopefully he win lots then tml all food n clothes on HIM... haha jk..

2010-08-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

I'm on first night and already falling asleep... hai.. misses my bed..and him... just looking forward to sunday outing... i can go shopping hehe... but not spend too much.. just go there see see look look and eat eat.. haha envy dear.. now is sleeping like a pig at home on his comfortable bed... how is wish i was beside him.. tucking into bed together...

2010-08-19T23:57:00.000-07:00

Im not the one back from Paris haha.. its my sis who just returned back and Smuggle back A LV bag for me...

nice rite.. Singapore is selling at $1910 while Paris selling at $1200 sgd.. omg a diff of $700... she also bought for herself a Gucci bag and a Gucci wallet for my mum..Can't wait to carry my new bag!!!

2010-08-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

I would like to share a video today.. its really very nice and its the kind of movie i like and the storyline that u would like to happen in real life ...however it doesn't... Enjoy!!

2010-08-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

Last sat, me and him just apply for a flat in bukit panjang... near his parents place... however i feel tat its seems as though we are really rushing... we nv really went down to see the showroom and check all the neccesary thing and yet we proceed to purchase a house... omg!! i can't believe tat...hmm i told him tat i wanna have a hse of ours and not to stay with his parents but apparently he wants it.. im fine lol no choice.. but i said that i wanna have the master room of our own he said that "YOU ARE SO DEMANDING!!" hai sian... am i?? all couples who purchase their room will wanna have their own masterbed room wat!! hai.. haven marry already like tat.. wat if i really marry to him, will i really be happy???

2010-07-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

i just hate him very very much!!!! y make me suffer so much and still say that im the one torturing myself.. really hate him so much... y he like tat couldn;t spare a thought for me...did i do anything wrong ? did i??he rather go soccer than meeting me... hai i'm very tired already... yyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.......so sian... like tat got future meh?? i really love him a lot... thought things happen , i still couldnt bear to break with him... i dun really meant it whenever i said break... but... hai.. dun wish to say more...

2010-07-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

Just came back from work... feeling emo again... i would say its insecure.. cos i just happen to browse his profile and saw this gal in his contact list... i think its not his fren but upon seeing her ppic.. made my mind run wild.. i would start thinking is his still ading gal.. i think this gal rite ... he dunno one lol he just add her..Am i being really possesive.. i think im but its becos i'm just insecure... hai i really dunno how sld i go on if both of us get marry...?? i really wonder...

2010-07-17T11:04:00.000-07:00

Night.night again...finallyhe finished his reservist... very sian..hate doing night.. tml he is going to south china sea i think its ard there to fish.. and once again there goes my off day without him.. though he will be back on tue but i still misss him.. moreover he said that its costly to call... so i suppose he wun call me tat often.. hmm monday i'm gonna highlight my hair and maybe go eat with mummy.. i really wanna save and maintain the figures in my bank acc..hopefully will increase when i keep on saving...hmm and i gonna start thinking which course shall i study.. still thinking... wat to do..

2010-07-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday finally my dear dear booked out from camp... The first thing I did was to hug him tight... Nv knew that I Misses him this much..Actually we plan to watched toy story 3 and we even booked our tickets in marina square.. But I thought it's was 4.30 show , I called him to wake up late and there was also a massive jam.. In te end we missed our show and spent time in vivo city... We had our dinner in a jap resturant .. Food wasnt tat fantastic but I truely enjoyed every moment spent with him... Today he went fishing with his bosses.. N I was alone at home waiting for him.. Hours ago, he just booked in. I missed him very much.. N couldn't control my tears .. You can nv imagine how much u can love a person and do things tat u nv thought of doing just to please him.. Or should I said this is Love... I think I love him more than I love myself.. This is so not me... How I wish he could be visa versa ...

2010-07-02T11:57:00.000-07:00

somebody help!!! i'm really tired and my eyes are closing... yet pple who can slp dun wanna slp and they are watching WORLD CUP... sian...fatser i'm looking forward to morning... later still got to shower pt.. hai just dun feel like showering them... hmm how to spend my off day when the irritating ryan going fishing and booking in on sunday... sian.. seriously... we got no time...

2010-07-01T10:44:00.000-07:00

2010-07-01T10:28:00.000-07:00

Last night i had a dream. i dreamt that the irritating 16 yrs old is pestering and stalking me and ryan... when i woke up today, just happened to browsed thru her profile and i was really shocked!!! I saw that she posted ryan call her and msg her.. blah...so sian the same stupid thing happen again..i really hate it!!I called my sis and told her abt it but she thinks that its that bitch plot.. and i had fallen into her trap..i just couldnt trust him anymore...this kind things happen too often... there's an idom stating WU FENG BU QI LANG.. i called rayn but he said that he was innocent and never do this kind of thing..i was really pissed and upset.. really can't listen in to wat he had said and i told him not to contact me again... I cried and i slept... after i woke up i just thought that maybe its true that the girl really set him up and created this lie... and she really is so CHILDISH !!!bitch!!!After all, we still back to square one... i was really touched when he msg me this "U know u are already my laopo le the one and only i love. dun think too much k" N i ask him" do u think we can really till the end?" He replied " Yes my dear no worry k. if u want me delete all the girls number or what. i will do it k. cos i really love u" I'm touched!!!

2010-06-04T11:22:00.000-07:00

Today is my last night, seriously i'm really tired... just now dear accompany me to ECP hongkong cafe for dinner... till now i still feel full..hmm counting down to dawn..

2010-06-03T11:43:00.000-07:00

Today is my 2nd night shift.. this time i have to do 3 nights!! hai wat the hell!!!moreover tml is with someone who is junior...hai.. sian the first thing for my shift.. my patient had a fall hai so sian le..anyway... i've really enjoyed my birthday celebration with him..its was really FUn and i truely enjoyed it very much! Just now, i saw that he msg somthing on fb with his gal friends .. hai this is so sina.. this is the how many times of stupid things le.. he siad its only joking but to me i felt super sian.. why do people love to commit the same mistakes over again when they know that the other person simply hate it!!!hai.. sian sian sian pls help me tomorrow night make it a peaceful one !!actually i m very tired now...feel like sleeping..anywya will post pics when im free..

2010-04-30T04:58:00.000-07:00

Tml is saturday... and i am off on both sat n sun but my darling can't acc me.. so sad rite.. hai.. i just went for facial and its so freaking painful... the best enjoyment was when she massage for me and the mask....after paying my bills i felt more at ease cos i got abt 235 outstanding bill .. think gonna pay next month... and also additional 200 bucks to put into oue account.. last month and this month we nv save any $$ ... he also tied..... well alll i'm looking forward now is my birthday... excited!! hmm anyway today i also get my apprisal le... hai my mc cos me!!!so anyway.. how am i going to spend my weekend?? today abt it!!!

2010-04-22T09:39:00.000-07:00

TOday its my 2nd night and i already feel tired and sleepy... i'm thinking of wat to do tml... maybe i'll stay at home the whole day sleeping. then i will wake up and wash my clothes and tidy his room which is full of dust.. hmmm but i'm not sure if he is going out tml.. cos these 2 days he also burn like me so tired not enough rest... so maybe i think after work he will want to come home to sleep.. so tired now...

2010-04-21T09:21:00.000-07:00

Today i'm night shift again.. and moreover my partners suck!! hai i missed those nights wen i do with nurul and rafidah...sian.. just need to endure with today and tml and i will be free... then comes my day off... hehe anyway i'm waiting for my pay to come as this month i really broke to max!!! hopefully my salary increment will be a lot!! if not how to survive.. i only left with 700 plus to survive after all the debts and outstanding bills.. hai cannot let him know if not he will be angry.. june holiday coming soon.. i wanna go holiday.. mum wanna go too.. and hopefully my bonus and pay will be a lot a lot!! so tat i can sponsor both mum n ryan to travel.. mum wanna go korea.. me too but i wanna go taiwan first leh...haha its been sometime that i travel... the latest is ard feb hehe...so have to save up now for TRAVEL, BUY BRANDED BAGS, MARRIAGE and lots of things coming up..

2010-04-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hi there, i just came back from kelong last sunday... its was not that fanstatic as compare to the previous one i went to...however i really enjoy the time there... though its was really full of pple and the bad was really moving whenever somebody walked past... me n ryan found it really hard to slp n we have to change position to slp...this time i didn't take lots of pics n didn't catch a lot of fish... this time ard we drove to malaysia instead of taking bus.. my dad n bro went too.. its fun though they all got BURN.. haha lucky me

2010-03-15T08:23:00.000-07:00

Just feel like blogging today .. i went out with my cousins and watch Alice in the wonderland 3D.. its was fun n entertaining... felt so sian.. just feel that everyday of my life i'm just wasting my time.. dunno wat to do..work play sleep...hmm wat can i really do..my 2 yrs anniversary is coming.. wanna plan something suprising for him but dunno wat to do.. hmm will i get suprises too? this yr his birthday wanna give him some suprise too... but i dunno wat shld i do.. haha chalet? will be like copy cat haha but wat else can i do?

2010-03-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

ITs been so long since i've last blogged!! CNY just passed and i've came back from BAngkok abt 1 week.. as usual being paranoid..i'm still checking his facebook,emails... i know its really unacceptable and its so stupid..but i just felt unsecure as usual... i saw his frens list ..though he promised me that he will not add gals that he doesn;t know but yet i've found some gal on the list that he had added... why can't he just dun add them.. i just dun like it... and he knows that i dun like and he also promise me but why is it everytime like tat.... i dun like!!! can u imagine till now i still can't figure out how much he love me... Just a while ago i was jus t thinking that our 2yr anniversary is coming, i was thinking of wat to do for him... hai...

2010-02-05T07:11:00.000-08:00

I dunno why i become emo again.. he haven call me yet hmm since we phone ard 12pm . i called him ard 4 plus wanted to ask him if he could pick me up but he nv pick up the phone.. then now its 11 plus in the night, yet he hasn't call me..hai...just now when his sister sharon call me and ask me if i'm attending her birthday party tml.. her brother would attend maybe after airshow... the first thing came across my head is that, he would start seeing elaine... those frens of his sister...hai... just dun feel gd... if we really break up would i feel so miserable.. and think of these rubbish...relationship tend to get so fragile.. i dunno its seem that just need 1 person to come between or a mistake that he did can ruined the whole relationship....maybe its becos i haven seen him for 4 days le... i dunno..
Ever since he did something wrong to me.. i feel that the whole relationship is not the same as before..or its me who kept thinking ... i dunno really dunno...

2010-01-02T05:41:00.000-08:00

Today is 2/1/2010 saturday.. i finall got my iphone on thurs but after Queuing for 5 hrs.. so sian... hmmm not really know how to handle yet but i'm picking up... and today i finally got my pink casing and the screen protector which cost $39!!!haha anyway monday going to kelong soon.. still haven pack my stufff... i'm now at dear's shop playing com he gambling... so sian.. thought going to watch movie... then tml he going to buy fishing thing with zhaocai ...dunno if i will enjoy there not.. think should be fun.. haha welcome 2010.. hopefully everything gonna go smoothly throughtout this year...

2009-12-31T06:31:00.000-08:00

People, i just bought my iphone today after queuing for freaking 5 hours.. thanks god my bro was there to accompany me if not i guessed i'll already drop dead... haha After 12 midnight will be 01/01/2010.. a brand new yearr... well my new year resolutions will be:
1.A happy family...
2.Hope that ryan can really love me only
3.To get into A&E
4.More money of course
5.I must be HAPPY....

haha though u all might think its funny.. but these are all i wish for and stop thinking nonsense provided he dun do anything wrong... haha

2009-12-28T07:25:00.000-08:00

This was taken at dear's company shop warming... lotsa fun.. and happening!!

2009-12-27T09:57:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of my al... actually i just finshed typing this blog but the stupid com no connection.. everything that i've tyoe is gone... have to retype again... i just checked his pc ytd and found lots of fgal pic... some of them are his frens...i felt so pissed and we even quarreled there... at last he deleted all the pictures... i still felt irrtated and sad... why can't he just love me wholeheartedly and not look at otheres gals... is it very hard to do this????whenever i see i just feel so sad... if i should continue this relationship... everytime even though i tried to break up with him eventuallly we will be back to square one... i will be very soft hearted and together again... how foolish am i... i really wonder if we really get marry how can i survive... i will end up i imh... have depression... i dun really wanna think of future now... just wanna stay like this now.. till i can really trust him ... hai.. he always said that i think too much... but if he can stop doing all these things i won't be thinking so much....he can prevent things from happening but yet everytime he let this things repeat and repeat ... felt really really sad and disappointed.....how can we form a family when our foundation is so unstable...

2009-12-14T10:47:00.000-08:00

Today my sis just came back form shenzhen.. and she bought a lot of stuff back.. omg!! Shoes, clothes,bags.. u mention u have it...if i knew that its a shopping paradise there, i would give her some $$ to buy for me too.. and she even did extention to her hair... omg its so gorgeous... i also wanna do it.. its cost about 80 bucks... haha how i wish i could.. currently i'm still working and i feel damn sleepy... wanna doze off.. awaitng sun to rise then i can go find dear dear le and sleep while he hugging me... felt really good when i'm being tuck to sleep.. just like a baby... haha

2009-12-13T02:07:00.001-08:00

Its been weeks that i've nv update... recently been attending lotsa of wedding.. and its really enjoy to see couple get together and married.. I dun really wanna marry now.. cos i dun wanna be tied down by family and children..i dunno why whenever my menses come, my thoughts tend to go wild... thinking of things i shouldn't be thinking of... I still can't get myself to trust him.. i just think that he still cheats on me.. and been checking his facebook,mails etc...how can i deal with this.. he kind of cheated me once... but guys perception is that as long as i dun sleep with that woman means i didn't cheat on u... but u ask for the gal number, chat with her is already cheating me... this is how i think...i really had enough of all this whenever i think of this i will start thinkinng if i should break with him again...hai.. wat should i do so tat i will not feel this way again...

sigh...

2009-11-30T09:35:00.000-08:00

HAha for the past 3 days,its was really enjoable for me as i can to spent time with my dear and frens... on fri, i went to attend wedding in the morning .. its was xiuqing and dehong web... its was so fun as i get to dress up and had a hairdo.. and took lotsa pictures... then ard 5 plus we went to their chalet till about 2 plus.. i was really tired that day.. On sat, dear went to work till about 6 plus then reached home.. while i spent time sleeping at home...night time we went to chalet again.. this time ard we spent the whole day till sun morning at chalet...cos he was playing mahjong..we slept the whole day till 3 plus.. then we ordered mac and play Wii... hehe its was really fun though..
Monday which was today,i'm on night shift.. so sian.. still on holiday mood..i really wanna free myself from work as its really politics here... just wanna enjoy my life with dear dear...

2009-11-23T07:07:00.000-08:00

Working life has never been a smooth way for all of us.. recently my working encountered lotsa things and its really irrtating... for e.g there's back stabber,hypocrits,and its really very political... like colleagues really suck boss's ball.. omg.. to the extend calling her own boss mum... disgusting.. anyway dun really care about those bitches anymore.. i just wanna led a life full of happiness ...

2009-11-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

Actually its happened ytd, when i found out that this gal likes my bf and she been pestering him and msg him. I was angry but what i was angry was that he should not have gave him his hp, this lead many things.. i was so pissed off and msg him that i wanted a break up cos i couln't no longer trust him anymore. All my frens really encourage me to break with him... its just that when he reaached home he didn't wanted to let me leave so in the end back to square one... He promised me lots of things, reassured me..wanted to marry asap.. i mean the problem won't be solve even if we marry its will still be there.. what i can do is not to think that much but just stay the way as it is..i still love much much but i'm quite uncertain of his love...wouldn't think much now...

2009-11-17T10:26:00.000-08:00

Actually this ain't my first blog... hmm my first one shld be yrs ago, but i just left it rotted away.. actually this is a good way to vent my feelings.. as its seems that no one undstand me at time, even my close one... Well now i'm at work awaiting new day to arise and i'll be sleeping by then.. haha.. i'll try to updates and figure things out like how to design the blog and stuff like tat... haha see ya

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